In The Dark


What do you do when you don’t know what to say?

Have you ever had to write a paper … maybe an article … a speech … and your mind went completely blank?

I’m blaming this sinus thingy.

Can I say “thingy” and retain my Man Card?

Go ahead. Tweet that!

Sometimes you need a scapegoat.

Go ahead. Tweet that!

I read today’s long readings. Ezekiel 47:1-9, 12, the response from Psalm 46, and the Gospel According to John 5:1-16.

I have a video to shoot. I have a blog post to write.


Here’s what I have to say when I don’t know what to say:

Here’s the extent of my thoughts on today’s readings:

  1. Hey! They changed the psalm response in the new lectionary! Huh… (It was “The mighty Lord is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge,” but now it’s exactly Psalm 46:8: “The Lord of hosts is with us; our stronghold is the God of Jacob.”)
  2. I’ve read this reading from Ezekiel several times at Mass, and I have absolutely nothing to say about it right now.
  3. The gospel is about the crippled man who cannot get anyone to help him into the pool of water. He wants to bathe in hopes of being cured. Jesus asks him if he wants to be well, then cures him. The “Jews,” as John refers to the scribes and Pharisees, are only interested in chastising the man for carrying his mat on the Sabbath and learning who cured him on the Sabbath. All I can think about is “how ridiculous.” Not deep thoughts.

It’s days like this that make me truly happy that I’m Catholic.

When I have difficulty expressing myself, clearing my head, collecting my thoughts, I can rely on repetitive prayers like the Holy Rosary or the Chaplet of Divine Mercy and just pour myself out in groans or a sincere earnestness as I recite the prayers that have been so beautifully prepared and organized for me.

All I need to do is attempt to focus my attention on the Lord, on God, on Jesus, on asking Mary to intercede for me. That’s all.

That’s all I need to do.

The Lord sees into my heart. The Lord hears what’s in my mind. I can rely on Him, confidently, to get me through this.

When I can’t get myself to the cleansing pool, He knows what I desire. He knows what I need.

If I’m in earnest, I’ll get it.


Thanks for taking some of your precious time today to read and listen to my thoughts. My commitment during Lent 2016 is to post a daily video reflection to help you and me on our walk through the season and toward Easter Sunday. I will also explore other matters of faith and also health and fitness to keep us fit for the journey. Click here for my YouTube channel:

I appreciate your help and encouragement. Please let me know how I can help you. This is something I’ve been called to do for some time. I’m finally embracing it. Father, forgive me for procrastinating.

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